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I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend.

You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been livin' in.

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September 18th, 2009

... that Josh is finally out of my life, and I'm away from the situation.

I've moved to Oxford, Ohio, to live with my aunt and uncle and figure my life out a little.

The short of it is that I took Josh back... way too many times... finally I ended it for good in about July, and since then he's gotten very malicious and angry towards me. I'm not ready to really remember any of it, so reading back through my entries is too much right now.

Anyway; we're not talking now, I have him blocked everywhere. He got into my email and put a bunch of people I'd met since him on filter; I filed a police report, but the officer blew me off, so I don't expect anything to come of it.

I'll update more at some point, but that's the basics.

April 27th, 2009

Speeding Cars - Imogen Heap

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Here's the day you hoped would never come
Don't feed me violence
just run with me through rows of speeding cars.
The papercuts the cheating lovers
The coffee's never strong enough
i know you think it's more than just bad luck

There there, baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC's of growing up
No, no, darling
Oh don't lose your head
Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you yeah

Sleeping pills know sleeping dogs lie
Never far enough away
Glistening in the cold sweat of guilt
I've watched you slowly winding down for years
You can't keep on like this...
Now's a bad a time as any

There there, baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC's of growing up
Now now darling
Oh don't kill yourself
Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you yeah

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..it was a long time ago

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..

it's ok by me..it was a long time ago

There there, baby
it's just text book stuff
it's in the ABC's of growing up
Now now, darling
Oh don't lose your head
Cause none of us were angels
And you know I love you yeah

April 12th, 2009

Poem.

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Alone
2 am.
Pouring my insecurities
In your lap
Like hot coffee.
Sorry.

April 6th, 2009

Yeah, so.

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Stuff happened they way everybody said it would....

Josh and I are done. For good this time, I'm not going to keep doing this to myself. Clearly I am not a priority for him, and as they say... it is never good to make someone a priority when to them, you are only an option.

I'm not mad, not bitter, just done.

March 20th, 2009

Hmm.

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So, today consisted of:

1. Wake up at 6 am to let Josh in. Cuddle and sleep until 11.
2. Get up at 11 to walk him to the door.
3. Eat healthy breakfast of: Kashi cereal, half banana, raspberries.
4. Do laundry.
5. Go to park to write inspirational phrases on sidewalk.
6. Get kicked out of park for writing inspirational phrases on sidewalk.
7. Go to chiropracter appointment. Get informed that my right leg is significantly shorter than the left.
8. Buy things at walmart. Find out that my tax return has hit the bank.
9. Chill out at home.
10. Go to Walmart with Lina. Buy Jason the ficus plant, among others.
11. Decorate corner with baker's rack, plants, and corkboards.
12. Sleep.

March 2nd, 2009


I know this is what you all do on the weeknds. I can just tell... you spend your time knitting a condom amulet.
I have no words.

February 16th, 2009

Ugh.

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Josh and I are done. Completely.

No, he didn't cheat on me... nothing catastophic happened. We don't hate each other. But it was time.

I'm a fucking mess.

Moved...

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yeah, so ... moved into the new apartment... i'll take pictures and post them soon [with my new laptop...].

i'd be more ethusiastic but i just feel really, really overwhelmed right now.

josh stayed most of the night with me last night... he left around 7 because he couldnt sleep and went home to get a little extra sleep before class. im feeling really down about that whole thing right now, and ...ugh. i practically had to bribe him to get him to stay the first night with me. i feel like im a chore to him instead of something/someone that he enjoys and has fun with.

don't take that too seriously, because i know its not true, im just really upset right now.

ugh :(

February 8th, 2009

The CPSIA.

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"No snowflake in an avalanche ever feels responsible."
-Voltaire

"What good fortune it is for those in power that people do not think."
-Adolf Hitler

All I can say is that this law, which goes into effect on Tuesday, makes me very sad.
It won't affect me, as long as I use compliant materials for any items that could be marketed towards children, but gosh.

:(

February 5th, 2009

Stuff!

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So, I have three commissions for fingerless gloves at work, and one for a toboggan hat.

Also, I got my CUSTOM HAND STAMPED ring today that says "live life simply <3"  :D and two stacker rings to go with it.

ALSO, I finally gave into the MooCards trap ... ha. THEYRE JUST SO DARN CUTE. I did minicards... 100 for under $25 [with a promo code] isn't bad at all. Next time, I'll do regular cards so i can do a full business card front .. and i'll put my email address on it. This time, i mainly printed them for giving out to people i know in person, and in packages when people buy things from etsy - but even so, I should've put my email on it. hmm.

Lastly, I HAVE A DATE TOMORROW NIGHT. Haha. It'll be the first time we've properly "gone out" for a loooong time.

I have three more things to list on etsy, but it wasn't cooperating so it didn't happen... >.>

Time for bed. Ugh, 5 am is less than 7 hours away. D:
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